Harmony vs. Balance
Last week was filled with good things – meaningful conversations, creative collaboration, coffee. Oh, and yard work. Somehow, I managed to rake up what seemed like five years of leaves, weeds and pine needles into twenty paper bags. Sometimes those tasks waiting to be attended to finally override a to do list. I could let this make me anxious – the tidied yard that delayed the tidy home, the slow work of bonding with new friends that lessened my administrative productivity. The two days in a row of glorious spring weather that begged me to put down all indoor tasks and just bask in the long-awaited chance to be outside. But I am choosing not to worry. Instead, I’m looking back in awe and wonder; giving thanks for a handful of days that held many things that I love.
I will probably never be the kind of person who has it all. If my house is clean, I probably haven’t been cooking much – or I’m avoiding something!! Given an hour all to myself in the morning, I’m likely to sit in front of my computer, pounding out some thoughts, instead of bolting outside for a run around the park. If one aspect of my life is coasting smoothly, chances are, some other piece needs more care and attention.
When I shared this with some friends in conversation last night, at first, I used the word “balance.” That it is a continual challenge to find balance between ministry and home life, creative goals and professional work. “Harmony,” one friend said. “That’s what I strive for.”
This has sent me down a wild goose chase exploring the word “harmony,” I think my friend is right. We may never find balance in this life – that smooth road ahead with everything that matters to us fitting nicely in equal compartments. But harmony or “congruence” might actually be an achievable goal.
I won’t always have the strength and motivation to bag up half my hard, not every “coffee date” will wow me with insight and inspiration, not every gathering at my kitchen table will bubble up with laughter and joy. But when those things happen, I give thanks. And in gratitude, I open myself to whatever harmonious adventure unfolds next.
Thanks for Reading.